Yep, One Of Those.

i'm not gonna lie, this week has been a tough week.

everything is going smooth sailing then BAM it all comes crashing down.

i would LOVE my life to be somewhat awesome ALL the time but life is not that kind and i guess it's not meant to be because we are all here to be tried and tested, right?!

i have thoughts of doubt in myself and my mothering, basically EVERYTHING.

anyways, i'm not going to unload all my pointless thoughts here because let's face it who wants to read that haha.

i read blogs of people who have it worse than me, there honesty and positivity to what life throws at us (sometimes, ok no most times they are curve balls) makes me feel NORMAL.

Yep, sometimes I am cranky, moody, "everyone else's life is perfect", my life sucks attitude comes out but then I look at the crazy boys in my life and know that I am blessed and that I am making a difference in someone's life. The cheeky giggles I hear from their bedroom when it is meant to be bed time but they are in fits of laughter in their bunk beds over who knows what, gives me the reassurance that I need to wake up and go on tomorrow.

sometimes life isn't all smooth sailing but i think of this quote every time i feel myself getting pulled - yanked into my self-pity hole, "Come What May and Love It."

there's abit of honesty for your sunday reading haha, next time I promise it will be happy go lucky Kim : )

The Lost Ted

 today is friday, so that means pre-school for kai-kai and retail therapy for mum (& bracky.)

i was in cotton on kids for a while (it was probably more than a while) and the lovely lady there was entertaining bracky whilst i was "browsing for a little bit."

so anyways to cut a long story short bracky had found this ball - which i eventually had to buy because he wouldn't let the darn thing go.

but what silly mum didn't realise (UNTIL WE GOT BACK HOME) was that braxton had exchange the ball for his beloved teddy (whom he cannot live without).

i was so frantic when it was coming close to nap time and i was searching high and low for his teddy.

i was even getting so worked up i was calling out to this teddy in hope that maybe he would answer me back.

i then started back tracking, looking in the car, in my bag but teddy was no where to be found.

and he will not go to bed without his ted so I NEEDED this ted.

i remembered taking him out of the car with us to the shops and i didn't remember bringing him home.

i raced back into the car (by now it was a good 15 mins to nap time or as i like to call it my time) and raced up the escalator back to cotton on kids.

i didn't even need to say anything, i think the expression on my face (a desperate mother trying to have 2 hours of pure sanity to herself) was enough.

she smiled and said "i knew you'd be back."

that blessed woman, she saved my sanity today.

Family Date 4.

yesterday, jevan and i took the kids to balmoral beach.

jevan wanted to do something that cost no money (being a sunday), because he hasn't been able to see the kids with an exam leering around the corner, work picking up and being in melbourne this week.

so i suggested balmoral, a good friend of mine re-aquainted me with the beauty that is Balmoral Beach a few months ago.

it ticks all the boxes for the kids, it has a park, a scooter track, loads of boats, a wharf and a perfect picnic spot.

the weather was beautiful and the company was fantastic : ).

i didn't realise how much i missed having family time until the kids and i don't see jevan for months on end because he is studying his Chartered Accounting and golly studying full-time and working full-time takes up a WHOLE lot of time. 

I cherish these family dates at this moment in our lives because it's the only time where we are all together and we are focusing on each other.

i have watched my sister and sister-in-law have husbands who work and study, both full-time and i have so much more respect for them.

it is definitely harder than it looks and my hats go off to them.

they give me the hope that one day it will all be worth the time that jevan, the kids and i sacrifice.

Three, Already ?!

my oldest son turned 3 yesterday, I am still in denial there's no way he can be 3.

i mean i'm pretty sure just the other day I brought him home from the hospital, right?

but none the less he kept insisting that yesterday was his birthday and that he was "a big boy now."

so being his birthday yesterday it was a day for makai to choose anything he wanted to do.

so many possibilities that presented.

but, a train trip was the first request (he LOVES trains - he could ride them all day if i let him.)

the second request was to watch boats come into circular quay.

the third request was a play at the park next to the train station.

the last and final request was PIZZA.

all requests were met and he had a fantastic day.

his daddy made him his favourite breakfast - french toast, he got to open presents from his family and skype his family around the world (literally around the WORLD) and his response after all this was "this is the best mum."

i'll always remember this birthday as "the best"

A Quaint Celebration

last night makai had his third birthday shin-dig.

i can't quite call it a party because it was small and quaint.

we kept it to family (who still live in sydney) and his close friends.

he got to have his favourite food, which without a doubt was PIZZA.

cookies, oreo and tim tam balls, coconut ice, sausage rolls and quiches.

oh and tomato sauce, i can never forget the tomato sauce (that kid LOVES his sauce.)

and most importantly his train cake that he has been reminding me for the past month - EVERDAY.

his favourite colour is blue at the moment, so i went with that theme.

it was the most unstressful party i have ever had to host.

the decorations were all under $35.00, when does that ever happen?

he thought he was the king of the world that night, and so he should.

it's not everyday you turn 3.