Still Of The Night

before i gave birth to zayden i had made a choice to really enjoy him.

inclusive of waking up at all hours of the night for feeds.

i love this time with him,

yes i am completely exhausted during the day keeping the two boys entertained

but, the night time feeding is where i get to spend one on one time with zayzay.

their are no cars on the road, the neighbourhood is quiet, everyone else is asleep,

as i feed him he gazes out at the night sky.

he loves the moon and stars as they light his dark still room.

i sing to him "you are my sunshine,"

he looks at me and i just can't help but think at the journey he is about to embark on,

how quickly he will grow into a boy that won't wake up for these precious moments we share.

the tiredness, the lack of energy, the dark circles under my eyes are completely worth these precious moments that i get to share with my baby boy.

people think i am to young to have one child let alone three, but i don't feel like i have missed out on anything in my life as a young mum.

i feel so rich in more ways, i feel so loved, i feel complete, i feel like this is the one thing i was made for and that (sometimes) i am good at.

i'm so grateful to have not only one but three beautiful boys who call me their mumma.

Zayden Skye Ormsby

i thought it was time to share our little zayzay with the blogging world.

this was by far my best experience in labour,

 (i know, it's kinda freaking me out that i can say that and so soon after).

i woke up with no intentions of giving birth on the monday, 

but by 5pm that night i was beginning to have contractions.

i'm not going to lie i really wanted that epidural, so with that in mind i told jevan that we needed to leave for the hospital at 6:00pm.

we headed on down to Hornsby Hospital and arrived at 6:20pm.

we met my midwife downstairs and walked to the birthing unit.

i have always wanted a water birth since makai but because of complications due to birth weight i have never been able to have one.

but this pregnancy was completely normal, so my midwife ran my bath which took 20 minutes to fill.

i hoped in, by now my contractions were 2-3 minutes apart and lasting for a minute long.

i got the gas - boy that rattling is a good distraction.

i started to push at 7:00pm, on the first push my waters broke and by the second push at 7:05pm we welcomed our little boy into this world.
 and of course the moment i laid my eyes on him, i fell incredibly in love.

Zayden Skye Ormsby
24.02.2014 | 7:05pm
3.38 kg | 51cm long