Energizer Bunnies

ok. 

so i don't know if there is something in the water or if it's just my boys, but they have been CURAZY for the last week.

i have come to realise that their behaviours and moods come in waves.

most of the time they are great but then all of a sudden BOOM i have fallen off my board and am thinking "what the heck is happening?"

i found myself last week getting home from errands and days filled with tantrums,

bringing the boys inside for quiet time and sitting outside for 10 minutes of peace so i could get my head back in the game for the afternoon.

love my boys, but oh gosh that braxton of ours is so strong headed and so far into terrible two's i think we may have lost him to them.

he has completely mastered a tantrum, a scream, throwing his toys and also sitting on the time out chair until mummy says it's time to apologise - we are still currently working on perfecting those however.

the joys of motherhood and the joys of boys.

they never ever stop.

i think if we were to compare them to something, it would be those energizer bunnies.

and i have THREE of them.

this would be the beginning of a mild tantrum being thrown by this guy.

they say you get one like yourself and this would be my karma right here.

Because Of Him

 being easter sunday today, our sacrament program was based around that theme.

we had such great speakers and i learnt alot from all of them.

i have been having alot of inner struggles recently.

i have felt quite alone and lost.

i have prayed for comfort and for the strength to overcome these feelings of inadequacy.

today one of the speakers reminded me of a talk Elder Holland gave in a general conference.

i really needed to be reminded of this and i felt like it was an answer to my prayers.

"With all the conviction of my soul I testify that He did please His Father perfectly and that a perfect Father did not forsake His Son in that hour. Indeed, it is my personal belief that in all of Christ’s mortal ministry the Father may never have been closer to His Son than in these agonizing final moments of suffering. Nevertheless, that the supreme sacrifice of His Son might be as complete as it was voluntary and solitary, the Father briefly withdrew from Jesus the comfort of His Spirit, the support of His personal presence. It was required; indeed it was central to the significance of the Atonement, that this perfect Son who had never spoken ill nor done wrong nor touched an unclean thing had to know how the rest of humankind—us, all of us—would feel when we did commit such sins. For His Atonement to be infinite and eternal, He had to feel what it was like to die not only physically but spiritually, to sense what it was like to have the divine Spirit withdraw, leaving one feeling totally, abjectly, hopelessly alone." - Elder Jeffery Holland

i know that when i feel that i am alone, i am not.

for he is there, he is listening, he understands my heart ache and pain.

my brother, my friend, my saviour.

he died so that i may have the opportunity to repent of my wrong doings time after time and return back to heavenly father.

i will be forever grateful for the atonement of christ.

i will be forever grateful for jesus christ and for the ultimate sacrifice he performed for not only me but for everyone who will ever come upon this earth.

he truly loves each one of us unconditional and perfectly.

i am not very good with words but i know he lives, i know he loves me.

he is my lord, my saviour, my friend and my brother.

 

Baby Zay

today my sweet zayden was your special day,

it was the day that your daddy gave you, your very first blessing.

you were dressed in white with a bow tie,

a bow tie that matched your brothers, 

it symbolises the special bond that only the three of you will share,

an unbreakable and ever lasting one that will descend into the eternities.

you looked so handsome,

i couldn't help but try and capture everything about this moment,
your small hands and tiny fingers,
your little ears so perfectly placed,
your nose that resembles your dad's and papa.
your innocent eyes that gaze around exploring the world in which you now live.

your dad held you so lovingly as he walked you to the front of the chapel,
that was the last glimpse i got of you as your uncles and grandfathers formed a circle which centred around you.
the words of your blessing were beautiful and one day will bring you the strength you need to keep going on.
i will never forget the spirit that was there that day, it was so strong and profound.
i love you baby zay and i don't think at this moment in time,
the amazing and strong child of god you are about to become.

you will grow up one day into a man but my dear son you will always be my child.