Thursday, February 12, 2015

A Day To Let Go

How do you put into words the feelings as you watch your number one take their first step towards their new adventure, without you waiting to catch them if they fall?!
Makai started kindergarten today.
I cannot even begin to express my feelings but I know you mothers out their know exactly what I’m talking about.
They give you information on what things you an do to help your child start school but really they need to write one for first time parents.
Makai has been the greatest through this whole experience.
He has been my wing man.
He has comforted me when I have needed it most.
He will give me a big makai hug, kiss and tell me “I love you so much mum.”
We have had conversations about going to kindergarten where he has told me “I’m ready to go mum but I will miss you.”
He is tender and so genuine.
I worry that the world will change his sweet little spirit.
I worry that he will be bullied or picked on.
I worry that his glasses will hinder him.
But then I think how great he will be,
What great things he will accomplish.
What people will he influence.
He walked hand and hand with me into the school gates.
He was jumping with excitement he could hardly wait.
As he waited for his turn, we arrived at his classroom, KN, he walked straight in like he had been there a hundred times before.
He gave me one last makai hug and kiss, told me he loved me and then that was it.
He was officially a kindergarten-er.
His mountain is here and he is beginning the climb,

I cannot wait to see what wonderful things life has in store for my little boy.



Preschool-er

Braxton is now officially a preschool-er.
He has been waiting for this day for a couple of years.
He has had to say bye to his brother even though he has wanted to stay .
But the day came that Bracky got to go.
I thought he would be absolutely fine, nothing phases this boy.
As we drove to preschool we were talking about it and he was starting to get abit nervous.
We got out and put his belongings where they needed to go, I looked down to see a boy just needing a hug to know that everything was going to be ok.
Braxton and I have very similar personalities so I can understand how he deals with things.
We tend to bottle everything up and brush it off until it all gets abit much and then have a moment to ourselves.
As I hugged this beautiful boy he bursted into tears.
As a mum does, I told him everything was going to be ok and how much fun he was going to have kissed him and then ran out of there before I bursted into tears to.
It doesn’t get easier, the first day of anything is hard no matter how many hildren have done it before.
I could just be a big sooky-lala when it comes to my boys.
As you could guess I got back to the car and cried all the way home.
I mean was i not just sitting in the hospital waiting to get discharged so we could go home,
And now he has taken his first step into the world - exploring the surroundings around him.

He doesn’t even know how great he is going to be – but I do.