Kindy 2019

my dear zayden boy,

you have no idea how proud i am of you in this exact moment. 

you started a new phase of your life today,

you started big school. 

and my dear, 

you smashed it.

my favourite part of saying goodbye to you was

just before you went into class you ran and 

gave me one last hug and patted me on the back.

you will never know how special you are too me.

you have been my little side kick for the last 5 years

and out of all the boys you are the biggest mumma’s boy.

i have watched you grow and conquer your fears

and today proved just how brave and strong you are.

you did not cling to my leg or even cry.

you only turned back to give me one last hug because 

you knew mum was “happy sad” for this moment.

you are going to move mountains,

but sometimes life is going to kick you down sometimes 

you need to remember just how stubborn and defiant 

you are in those moments to kick it back.

you are a mixture of cheeky, kind, considerate, anti-social

 mixed with a little fire.

our family wouldn’t be complete with out you in it.

being your mum is an absolute pleasure and honour.

i cannot wait to see what the amazing things the future has instore for you.

“I’ll love you forever, I’ll like you for always, as long as I’m living, my baby you’ll be.”

love mum.

School 2019

the older boys started school today.

on one hand i feel like

YES I MADE IT

and on the hand 

my heart is legit breaking.

you blink and then they are all grown up.

this year we have a yr 4 and a yr 2-er.

i love watching them be challenged and grow every year

but a little part of me breaks to think 

each year they become more and more less dependant of me.

their are so many hopes and dreams i have for my boys

but my biggest hope is 

that they will always be the best version of themselves.

jevan and i try and raise them the best we can

(sometimes that in itself is a challenge)

we hope that we are doing right by them,

we hope that they will learn to distinguish between good and bad choices,

we hope that they will be able to understand with agency comes consequence,

we hope that they speak kindly to people

and use their manners.

most of the time we fail them 

as we get use to managing each stage of life they go through

but i hope they know that no matter what they do

that we will always love them.

here's to the beginning of the 2019 school year.