Me vs Him

there is no instruction manual on motherhood.

if there was, it would say under 3 year old boy ; you've done your best, now run.

I don't know what it is but sometimes they just wake up and turn into this person you don't even know.

i reached my breaking point yesterday morning during sacrament meeting at church - I know, such a great place to lose it.

jevans's new calling keeps him away for most of sunday and his work keeps him away all week, so this mumma had a minor meltdown filled with tears and thoughts of "how can Heavenly Father think I can do this, what did I do wrong in raising this boy, i have failed him already, why won't he get that we don't hit and that we share."

don't get me wrong I love this kid more than he will ever know but gosh he can make me want to hit my head against the wall sometimes, tell a lie most times right now.

is it just my kid that won't listen, is it just my kid that talks back?

as a mother you have all these types of question that float around and around in my head.

my mum always said after labour "now comes to the real hard times."

and golly, how right she was.

sometimes a good cry is all you need with support from people around you affirming that no, your not crazy and yes you are doing the best you can - oh and chocolate (that always makes everything better right!?)

i love being a mum but man, it's a tough job.