Announcing...

it's been a long 5 weeks not being able to blog about this.

i have had urges but i have waited until our announcement picture was all done.

we are excited to announce the we will be growing to a family of 5 with baby #3 awaiting it's arrival in
february 2014.

these last 5 weeks have been a roller coaster ride full of morning sickness, lack of energy, sleepy eyes (straight after waking up in the morning) and the biggest thing missing all the foods that i love.

each child i have carried has been different, but this one has been the hardest and feels like an eternity.

i have never had nausea straight from week 5, i have never not been able to eat the foods i love, i have never lacked energy quite like this before.

but in saying that, when those 2 lines came up i was so - i dont even think excited covered my emotions, i think it was more close to ecstatic. 

it was an emotional journey to this point, this child is the only one that we have tried for and it took 5 months (it seemed much much longer to me) to fall pregnant. the other 2 lads only took a month because surprise surprise they just came along without my knowledge ; ).

having taken so many tests with the result of negative being the common result, the last test i took with a very level head saying to myself "it's ok if your not, just give it a go."

i closed my eyes then re-opened them to see a second line appearing rapidly.

my eyes were full of tears and i literally wanted to do a fist pump while jumping in the air.

i found this picture on pinterest once and knew that's how i wanted to tell jevan the next time i fell pregnant, and that's exactly what i did. while he was at work because i could not wait to tell him.

the excitement came to a crashing holt when a week later nausea set in, my 6:30am walks ceased because i was super tired, i could no longer drink my carrot and apples juice daily, vegetables made me want to hurl, my hormones were all over the place and i was crying one minute and then screaming the next. i did promise myself whilst we were unsuccessful those months before that i would really enjoy this pregnancy and not wish it to fly by so this week i have been not only counting down the weeks until all this goes away but i have been enjoying this journey because quite seriously if this bambino is boy # 3 this mumma will be done. 

makai is so excited to help he tells me he is going to feed it and give it baths and play buzz lightyear with it, i'm excited for him and braxton, they are going to make the best big brothers : ).

on another sad note - i'm already feeling super super SUPER bloated and for someone who never shows until after 19 weeks this is a different feeling, still undecided whether i like it.