Mrs Ormsby

when you get engaged all you think about is planning the wedding.

then once that is all over life will just fall into place and live happily ever after, right ?!

WRONG.

i've learnt that life always have something different in store for us.

when jevan and i got married i thought of all the time i'll get to spend with him, we will have kids and spend all weekend doing amazing family dates with one another, we would be able to go on couple dates regularly, ya know things like that.

i can't lie this year has seen alot of change in our family and some have been tough.

some expected, some we did not see coming in a million years.

we moved out into our first family home, jevan started a full-time job after completing 3 years at uni, jevan then began his full-time chartered accounting course, i fell pregnant and had ridiculous morning sickness and jevan got a new calling at church which takes him away from the home alot.

sometimes i find it really really difficult to deal with what life hands out.

all i can say is my happily ever after mindset has been replaced by reality.

when i see families all going out on the weekends, when makai asks why can't daddy play with us today i have to say to myself "this will all be worth it in the end."

i don't want people to think that i'm complaining because i'm not, i just want people to know that it's ok to be overwhelmed by it all and it's ok to feel like it's all to hard.

i am like super hormonal right now, this baby have turned me into a crying machine - and if you know me very well you know that i hate crying in front of people.

so i have spent alot of time crying this past month and honestly sometimes i don't even know why.

life is just hard sometimes - all those women who can manage all this and not complain hi-5 to you guys, you need to tell me your secrets because sometimes it just consumes me and becomes all abit to much and you guessed it - i cry.

i guess the key is finding joy in the journey.