Newborn Photos

today was pretty exciting,

i got to collect zayden's newborn photos.

mums will totally get my excitement.

my friend Sally from Eden Lane Photography was my choice,

she is an amazing photographer.

i love how natural and candid her photos are.

she doesn't think she did a good job but i think she did an amazing job.

i especially love the photos of the three of them together,

each photo shows their own little personalities.

oh and if you have seen all of the photos on my facebook page, note that braxton would ONLY sit still because i was holding a box of sultanas behind my hand feeding him into submission ;), poor sally my kids are not helpful when it comes to photos.

Success

today has been a great day.

and i'll take them when i can get them.

a good nights sleep, a gym session, preschool bag packed, three boys ready and dressed for the preschool drop off, birthday presents bought and paid for.

my biggest accomplishment today has to be getting 3 kids in and out of the car, in the pouring rain to drop kaikai off at pre-school.

(oh how times have changed if i class that as my biggest accomplishment of the day)

and to give oursevles a pat on the back, 

we headed into towers and had a date.

which was inclusive of a babycino and a macaroon.

it may not seem like a whole lot that i got done to some but to a newborn mum this is a BIG DEAL !

Tomorrow Is Another Day

as i sit here and think about how my day was,

i'm completely classing it as "one of those days."

you know, when nothing seems to go your way and you want to crawl into a whole and stay there until it's the kids bed time.

yep, i totally had one of those.

being a mum of a newborn is tough work, it's both physically and emotionally draining.

i once again feel completely out of my depth, and think how on earth did i do this twice already?!

establishing a routining is proving to be a little challenging this time around because of school, sport, and everyday commitments that have to be fulfilled.

and then you have the "mum guilt" because i don't get the amount of time i would normally with the older boys - seriously we can NEVER win.

i'm nowhere near a perfect mother and i never will be but i hope my boys know just how much i love them even if i lose my cool quite often at this moment in time.

so today as i struggled to get everyone ready for church (on time), i spent most of the morning sitting on the floor or on my bed crying feeling completely and utterly overwhelmed at being a mum of three.

my oldest came into me, looked me into my eyes and said "mum your beautiful,"

i thank my heavenly father for these tender moments that give me the strength and reassurance to keep moving forward and to try my best.

i am not perfect, i feel completely inadequate, but i know no matter how many times i fail i can always try better tomorrow.

Where Does The Time Go

where does the time go?

zayden is already 3 weeks old.

i feel like i have known him forever, i feel like he has been apart of this family longer than just 3 weeks.

a few facts about zayden ;

1. he is our red head

2. he isn't a fan of the car

3. he is a fan of tummy time

life feels so complete to have him in it,

makai & braxton are absolutely loving being big brothers, probably a little too much for zayden's liking.

i have had my moments of feeling completely overwhelmed but i find comfort in knowing that this stage is but for a small moment, which makes me want to capture it so that i can remember everything about it.

i have a goal that each week i take photos of zayden.

so far 3 weeks in i'm doing pretty good :), but it is only week 3.

Still Of The Night

before i gave birth to zayden i had made a choice to really enjoy him.

inclusive of waking up at all hours of the night for feeds.

i love this time with him,

yes i am completely exhausted during the day keeping the two boys entertained

but, the night time feeding is where i get to spend one on one time with zayzay.

their are no cars on the road, the neighbourhood is quiet, everyone else is asleep,

as i feed him he gazes out at the night sky.

he loves the moon and stars as they light his dark still room.

i sing to him "you are my sunshine,"

he looks at me and i just can't help but think at the journey he is about to embark on,

how quickly he will grow into a boy that won't wake up for these precious moments we share.

the tiredness, the lack of energy, the dark circles under my eyes are completely worth these precious moments that i get to share with my baby boy.

people think i am to young to have one child let alone three, but i don't feel like i have missed out on anything in my life as a young mum.

i feel so rich in more ways, i feel so loved, i feel complete, i feel like this is the one thing i was made for and that (sometimes) i am good at.

i'm so grateful to have not only one but three beautiful boys who call me their mumma.