A Little Road Trip

on the weekend we had my cousins 30th party down in huskisson.

the drive is absolutely beautiful.

it's a 2 and a half hour drive down the south coast.

you get the best of both the ocean and country views.

it amazes me at how beautiful our country is.

i'm totally there in my life now to "appreciate" the beauty of this country.

my parents hired a tarago so we could all be together,

the boys really really loved it.

zayden wasn't to impressed sitting between the two of them however.

i took the opportunity to have a lunch stop in kiama.

it's ridiculously beautiful there.

i don't know what it is about the beach but it is my happy place.

it's where i go and feel calm and at peace.

how can you go to the beach and not feel relaxed, right?!

we are so blessed to have amazing beaches and so many to choose from.

if you haven't yet been to kiama, it should go on your list.

it's only an hour and a half away which makes for a perfect little family road trip.

the grilled salmon was delish and the kiddies of course enjoyed the chips.

and then after lunch there are endless amounts of seagulls to feed.

and of course i took the opporunity to capture some photos of the boys.

Guess Who ?

lately i have been getting asked who zayden looks like.

and quite frankly, i have no idea.

i have replied with "He just looks like Zayden."

different people tell us different things.

"Oh wow he looks like the Nicholls side or the Ormsby side", "He looks so much like Braydon" or "He is such a mixture of Makai and Braxton."

so with all this being asked and me having absolutely no idea who he looks like i thought i would dig up some photos of all the boys the same age and see if anyone of you out there in the cyber world can tell me who you think he looks like, or if he just has his own little swagger going on.

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makai
braxton
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and then just to throw another curve ball in the mix,

here is a baby picture of jevan.

which after seeing i think zayden may look a little like jevan?!

who do you think our third looks like?

Update

meet the boys.

Makai is super super tender. He is my sensitive boy and really feels deeply. He LOVES cars, he always has since he got hs first matchbox car on his first birthday. He is very cautious when he is introduced to new things or new activites and will access all the risks before he will engage in them. He gets anxious when he has to do certain things or is around new people. He loves playing outside, even when it's raining. His favourite food is pizza and would eat it all day everyday if he was allowed. He loves music, I have to watch what is on the radio now because he loves singing. He is a real hands on boy and loves constructing things with lego.

  Braxton Boy, he is my fire cracker. This is my wild child, he has absolutely no fear. He loves playing TMNT, his favourite is Raphael - it suits his personality to a tee. He also loves Buzz Lightyear, i have to watch him because he is always jumpign off things saying "To Infinity and Beyond." If any of my children give me grey hairs it will be this one. He loves to stir both his brothers but he is so much fun to be around. He loves to tackle and run. He loves the park, but his most FAVOURITE thing is chocolate and lollies. He can find chocolate anywhere i hide it - no matter the height. It's a losing battle i am facing.

Zayden is our four month old chubba bubba. He is so so fun already. He is always laughing and smiling even when we are not playing with him he is laughing at something. He hates being frightened, he will lose it if someone scares him. He has inherited his daddy's sleeping genes and has been sleeping through since 2 months. If he doesn't get enough sleep he gets super grumpy (got that from his mumma.) He is our brown eyed boy, we have no idea who he looks like but i still think he is adorable. He is teething right now so his favourite toy would have to be his Sophie Giraffe. He hates lying down and would jump all day in his jumperoo if i let him. He is a big mumma's boy - which i love.

It's A Good Week

every now and then i feel like

"hey, i think i've got a hang of this raising boys thing."

this week has been one of those moments.

i know i still have a whole lot to learn and to teach.

but this week oh it's been great.

no hair pulling, i actually had some patience, i was calm, i was ready for an adventure every day.

coming home from our holiday this time was super super hard and i suffered the post-holiday blues BAD!

like really bad.

this week though it's like someone has kicked me up the butt and i've gotten a hold on myself and i'm back into gear.

i really love everyday being able to spend time with the boys.

doing things that interest them.

helping them with tasks or challenges they are facing.

being a mum rocks sometimes.

i had to pick up makai's enrolment for kindergarten next year and thought how could this be possible that my oldest boy is about to start "big" school, where has all the time gone?

i have come to the relisation that who cares if my house is a mess all day, as long as i can spend time building memories with my kids, i don't care.

the washing will get done, the cooking will get done, the cleaning will get done.

i don't have my kids long before i send them out into the world and i need to really embrace all the time that i have left with them.

Go Easy On Yourself

i think motherhood is like rollercoaster.

you can have great moments, moments that you wish you could get off the ride, moments that absolutely thrill you even though leading up to it you got so scared, nervous or anxious, and then the moment where you think oh i'm glad i did that.

it's continuously going up and down, or doing a complete 360.

i love my boys and i love being a mum but somedays are harder than others.

somedays i think i could be doing so much more and why arn't i doing it.

i need to be more patient, teach them more things.

be more social so they can interact with more children.

put them in a sporting program so they can be more active and learn skills that they need to know.

pray with them more and have a house that is more gospel orientated.

not to forget about family home evening and family scripture study.

read to them and teach them how to write their names.

and this is only a slight fraction of all the thoughts i have circling around in my brain.

and sometimes all it takes is a complete stranger or anyone really to tell you,

"you're doing a great job, you have beautiful children"

or the one that i realllllly love hearing and need to hear is 

"you're boys are just being boys they are normal."

i was at the markets today and a lady said all those three comments in one conversation.

i don't think she quite realised how much i needed to hear those simple statements that have made me think "Kim, your doing the best that you can possibly do right now and that's enough."

being a mum is ridiculously hard but i love it and there is really nothing in this world that i would want to be doing right now.

i try my best with my boys and that's all i can possibly do and that's all any of us can do.

A Confession

Ok. 

So I tried to be adventurous and save us some money by "attempting" to cut the boys hair. 

I was all "how hard could it possibly be," right?

Oh how wrong I was.

This should sum up how great my job was when my mum saw makais hair for the first time she looked at me and said "we all have a bad haircut once in our life."

in my defense, I had the front all nicely done and then he moved and I had to take it a LOT further back than I would have originally liked, now he looks like he has a massive forehead.

jevan has banned me from doing it ever again. 

needless to say I'll never pursue a career in hairdressing.

A Tender Moment

so i had a pretty crappy day today.

it probably had everything to do with the bad mood i woke up in.

sometimes the day seems to feel so overwhelming,

that i have no idea how i will get everything done.

then there's the mother guilt that i'm not spending enough time with the boys.

and then that's not mentioning the laundry, the grocery shopping and all of that stuff that "has to be done."

i really don't know how all you mothers out there cope,

i think you need to give me some tips in organising my day.

with two kids i could complete everything but then throw another baby into the mix 

and i'm all over the place.

but my day wasn't all bad.

i was sitting in the bathroom watching zay while he was in the bath.

and then makai came in and threw his arms around me,

he gave me the biggest makai hug ever.

(if you have experienced one of these you'll know what i'm talking about)

he then told me he loves me so much.

he is such a sweet and tender boy,

he is so sincere in what he says and doesn't tell you something he doesn't mean.

i'm so grateful that he chose me to be his mum,

he must have seen something in me that i didn't.

today in that moment he gave me the courage to keep moving forward.

he is my joy in this journey.