Graduate

makai graduated from preschool today.

it was a day filled with mixed emotions.

i cannot lie i lost it and blubbered.

when i saw this little boy walk in with his hat and rob, i was a mess.

he is all grown up and i don't know where the time has gone?

i have started a little tradition (this year is all about starting new traditions for me)

something i can give to them once they have finished school.

i have bought the book "Oh, the places you'll go" by Dr Seuss.

all the words written in this book are exactly everything i want to tell the boys about the wonderful journey of life and all the experiences they will meet.

so every year i am going to get his teacher to write a note to him and when he graduates year 12 i'm going to give it to him.

as a mother i get to sit back and watch him grow,

 i am grateful for specific people that heavenly father places in makai's life to help and guide him along his way.

his teachers this year were amazing.

they were placed in makai's life by no mistake at all.

they have helped him grow into a boy who is ready to start kindy.

they have loved him and accepted him for who he is.

they have been patient with him and they have believed in his abilities.

i am so so very grateful for them.

his teacher left his class with a quote today from the exact book that i love love so much.

Today is your day,

Your mountain is waiting,

So…get on your way.

if you haven't read Oh, the places you'll go you need to.

but have your tissues ready - if your anything like me you'll ball your eyes out.

this is my message to my little boy today.

Congratulations KaiKai!

Today is your day.

You're off to great places!

You're off and away! 

           Dr. Seuss

It's Time

mr makai had his orientation for kindy last thursday.

i cannot even begin to write how emotional i was.

i was surprised how emotional i was about this.

for the last couple of years i have been caught saying - quite frequently 

"i cannot wait until you start school."

can this day already be here?

he won't be with me all day every week?

i only get the afternoons with him?

i cannot believe that this day is just around the corner.

it brings tears to my eyes to think that once he begins kindy, that's it.

i send him off into the world and hope that all i have taught him will influence his choices to be good.

he is about to begin his journey in the world in which i can no longer protect him.

he will be all on his own.

i think this is what heavenly father must have felt when it was finally our turn to begin this earthly journey.

he could no longer protect us from our journey, only watch from afar and pray that we would return safely.

i struggle to come to terms with the fact that i have to let him begin his very own journey that doesn't have his mother by his side encouraging him and catching him when he falls.

now i have to watch from the sidelines and hope that he will be ok.

and hope that he knows how much i love him.

tonight as his dad went in to give him his nightly goodnight hug and kiss.

his dad asked him with his arms stretched out "do you love me this much makai"

makai's reply shaking his head "oh dad i love you lots more."

i really don't want to send my sweet eldest boy into the world,

but i know that it is time.

and as heavenly father does, i will hope and pray that he comes back to his family safely.

and i will be cheering him on from the sideline, dusting him off when he falls and throwing him back into the ring.

Mr Braxton Turns Three

no.2 turned the big three on tuesday.

i don't know where the time seems to be going?

he was just born and now he is getting ready to go to preschool.

the time i have slips by so very quickly.

if you know bracky you know he's my mini me.

i mean my exact mini me - looks and personality.

isn't his daddy lucky.

he is so wild. he is a riot.

his cheekiness is infectious.

when he gives you the braxton smirk you know he's got a devilish plan about to be put into motion.

he is going to give me grey hairs.

he loves music, he absolutely loves the avengers.

sometimes as i watch him climb or jump off things, i wonder if he knows he's not the real ironman.

but hey, i let the kid dream.

his imagination is amazing and he lets it run wild.

to be able to call myself his mother is an absolute privilege and a blessing.

he is the pocket rocket of the family, he is our tarzan.

he is growing into a boy that will be strong and courageous on his journey through life.

he will never know how much i love him.

there are no words that can explain it, it's a feeling - all you mothers will be able to relate to.

his birthday wish was to ride a horse.

and you guessed that his wish was granted.

if any of you are looking for something to do with your kids, you need to visit Golden Ridge Animal Farm at Dural.

it's the best farm i have taken my kids to and quite affordable.

they get to hold baby animals, bottle feed baby goats and lambs, feed deers, cows, pigs, ducks, geese, alpacas, milk a cow and to top it off ride a pony.

he got french toast for breakfast, donuts for lunch, salmon and prawns for dinner - as per requested by the birthday boy.

to top it off a birthday cake and a birthday song.

oh bracky boy - you have no idea how great you are going to be.