I Am Kim

when i was a teenager i always envied adults.

they all seemed to have it together,

they seemed to really know who they were, where they were going in life and where they fit.

i couldn't wait to get to 18,

i thought all my insecurities would just simple disappear.

now that i'm 26 almost 27,

i still don't really know who i am,

 i have 100% no idea where i am going in life and fitting in that's a whole different ball game.

as i get older i learn more things about myself and life.

but generally i still feel the same way i did at 12, 15, 16.

i am starting to realise that adults don't have it together,

i think we can just bluff much better than teenagers can.

we wake up and put our game faces on.
i'm starting to learn that it's ok to not know all this

i think that life as a whole is about learning

who i am, what i can do and where i fit in.

i think this quote pretty much sums up everything perfectly;

"life isn't about the destination, it's about the journey that gets us there."

Featherdale Wildlife Park

last tuesday say and i had a date.

we went to featherdale wildlife park.

(thanks cudo for your cheap vouchers!)

he had a ball.

he LOVES animals, any kind.

his favourite was the kangaroos and the baby lambs.

he thought the lambs were his buddies,

he didn't quite get the gist that they were trying to run away from him

and not for him to play tip with.

i love the days we get to have mum and zay dates.

he is growing up way too fast for me ! 

Vivid + Boys 2016

this is what our vivid family night looked night.

we were a little bummed the botanical gardens section was shut because of the crazy rain

but we still had loads of fun with the boys,

running up and down the opera house stairs,

eating ice-creams,

having light saber battles.

love these precious moments we get to spend as a family.

Queens Birthday Celebrations

i really appreciate the queens born day.

(and the public holiday that we get because of that)

the boys and i celebrated it by spending a beautiful day in windsor.

they rode their scooters,

they played at the park,

we tried to get the horses to come over to the fences,

i found the most beautiful gumtree,

we found amazing autumn tree leaves to throw,

we found a beautiful old piano to play in the middle of windsors main strip,

and the best thing

we got to eat ice-cream at our favourite ice-creamery.

it was honestly the most perfect day.

i REALLY needed it

 - there hasn't been too many of these days as of late.

Brax + Zay

proof.

that zayden really does love his big brother.

That Mum Life Crisis

i think sometimes you've just got it all together,

and other times you don't.

there isn't really any half way.

being a mum is tough, the most toughest thing I've ever done.

it is the most rewarding and i absolutely love it (most) of the time.

but there is those times where i'm like 

who the flip am i?

in between making and packing lunches,

being a referee constantly,

 being a taxi, 

doing the countless amounts of laundry that just keep popping up all the time, 

the cleaning (even though it NEVER looks like a vacuum)

prepping and cooking food all day long (boys can eat) that i most of the time i hear "i don't like it" in my response to my efforts,

washing dishes, 

being a cleaner/maid/servant/nurse/personal assistant/you name it i'm doing it,

i have forgotten who i am.

i kinda feel like i am tredding water and just keeping my head above the water with all these day to day tasks that have to be done.

it's hard yakka.

its mentally, physically and emotionally draining.

and i've only got three.

heavens,

if i had four right now i think that'd push me right off the edge lol.

i love my boys and would definitely not trade them for anything,

but what i would've give for a 10 or even just a 5 minute shower without someone coming in every 5 seconds dobbing on someone.

to all the mamma's out there

i think you are amazing and you are doing such a great job !

if you ever think who am i ?

think 

- i'm a survivor !

Cooking Fail

i am not in any way close to even being a baker or a lover of making food.

i do it because i have to.

so today i thought

hey, be a good mum and get to kids to help you make some protein balls.

i started off with such great intentions and patience.

it grew slowly into "stop touching that" - "can you get it in the bowl"

"zayden get it in your mouth not all over the floor."

and that just turned into annoyance and frustration.

i am clearly not one of those mothers that can do the whole mess cooking with kids thing.

but i do have to admit i had have fun snapping pictures of this failed motherhood attempt.

clearly i should stick to what i am more suited to,

and then the boys and myself will have more bonding moments

instead of eye closing, hair pulling situations.