Hornby Lighthouse

holidays are here, again.

i feel like we were just on our winter break.

time sure is flying by.

but SPRING IS HERE !

the weather has been a-maz-ing.

we don't have too much big stuff planned these holidays.

due to my fine (boo) and our washing machine dying,

we have a REALLY limited holiday budget.

which is perfect because i'm feeling super lazy these holidays

 and don't want too do much driving.

monday we went to the park,

i'm going to come back to tuesday,

wednesday we painted, played basketball and played card games all day,

today we went for a bike ride locally and now the boys are playing the play station.

so tuesday was our big adventure day.

i looked at my bucket list too see what we could knock off.

we did a little walk to Hornby Lighthouse over in Watson's Bay.

this is a cool little walk

 (15 mins - longer if your like us and stop forever at every little thing)

there is a canon, the lighthouse cottage and the gunpoints all along the way too explore.

the views were spectacular.

we seriously live in an amazing county.

probably the funniest thing about this walk was we walked straight past a nudist beach

(i had NO IDEA IT WAS THERE!)

we came to a sign that said you can only be nude on the beach and at that point i was like crap.

we had to walk right above this beach to get to the lighthouse.

makai was complaining that i wouldn't let him go swim there because the water looked so nice,

and he was right the water was aqua and crystal clear

but still that wasn't going to happen kid.

so he's complaining about that and i'm telling them quite loudly to LOOK AT THE TREES.

how many trees can you see?

wow did anyone see that lizard - there was no lizard.

i turned into one of those crazy mothers.

but don't worry i was prepared for the way back.

i enticed their inner competitive side.

"hey boys who thinks they can get to the other side of this beach in 30 seconds"

ha ha.

mum 1 nudist beach 0.

this was actually a really awesome place to explore.

we spent a good hour doing this walk because of all the tunnels the boys found near the gun points.

after our little walk the boys had a swim at camp cove,

they LOVED watching the scuba divers coming up out of the water.

This Parenting Thing

the last couple of weeks 

(which have felt like months)

my parenting has not been in its finest form.

my patience has been at an all time low,

my reaction to yell and scream has been at an all time high.

it really hasn't been that fab.

my boys have just been making me twitch.

all you mums out their know what i am talking about !

so because of all this

i am ashamed to admit it but i really just haven't liked them very much.

and then i get that mother guilt because you should always love your kids 

and be super patient with them as they learn what is acceptable and not,

right ?!

but in these moments of twitching, roaring,

(yep i roared at zayden the other morning - no words just a roar)

shaking my head, anger, guilt, "what the heck am i doing,"

falling asleep before 8pm even hits, "when will this end",

"i can't wait until you all grow up" 

there comes some moments of clarity where you think to yourself

hey, they are actually pretty alright kids.

(they are RARE however.)

today was a proud mum day for me.

this morning we had a parent-teacher interview for braxton

and i couldn't stop smiling at the report we got.

(yes, i am going to brag for a moment - this is my blog though lol)

he knows all his sight words (only 3 of them in his class do),

he is doing level 1 reading, sentence building, writing and mathematic equations.

but the bit that made my like - seriously who are you kid,

was when the teacher was telling us how much of an asset he is to the class.

he is patient with everyone, he is kind to everyone, he makes sure everyone is included, he helps people whenever he can, he tries his best all the time and to quote his teacher

"he is a teachers dream"

seriously, i almost laughed in her face because that is not the little punk that i get home from 3-7

EACH DAY.

but it just made me feel so proud of him, also a little confused because i'm still not sure if she is talking about the same person that i get, but still so proud.

and makai got his third principals badge today in the assembly.

this boy tries his absolute best every day in everything that he does.

he gets discouraged because he doesn't move up reading levels or spelling lists.

but i just tell him that i don't care about what level he is in,

the only thing i care about is that he is always trying his best.

and he looks at me with his big eyes and big smile and tells me 

"that's what i do mum i always try my best"

school hasn't been easy for this little boy but he is so resilient and never gives up.

two qualities i admire of his.

so sometimes in the midst of me re-thinking this whole parenting thing

i get little glimpses that we're doing ok, 

we definitely aren't perfect and we still have no idea what we are doing

but it just gives me the kick in the butt i need to keep on going.

Book Character Day 2017

this was the boys first ever book character day.

braxton was SO excited and requested the most random character.

Pig The Pug.

i love his quirkiness.

and makai didn't care so i suggested Waldo from "Where's Wally,"

selfishly because i had it from the halloween before.

and of course my easy going kid said sure.

braxton had the best time helping me make his mask.
i say that a lot but i really do love how each of my boys are different from each other.

03.09.17

my husband.

what isn't there to say about my joovy.

he's pretty amazing,

(ask me tomorrow and it could be a totally different story)

he isn't perfect but he's perfect for me.

he is absolutely the better half of us and our family.

no-one knows him the way i do.

and i love that.

he loves his boys with all of his heart,

he is everything a father should be and more.

he works hard and long hours for them so he provide the life he wants them to have,

he makes an effort with any spare moment he has to play sports with them,

build lego, play tip, bull rush, give them tickles, personal prayers, kisses and hugs.

he loves the boys enough to not only teach them but discipline them on what is acceptable and what kind of people they should be in the world.

the one thing i love about jevan this year is that he is trading his sleeping habits

- this is HUGE, he like LOVES sleep

for being an outdoors kinda guy.

he loves going on adventures.

each week around monday or tuesday i will get a message asking

"i had the best weekend last weekend. what is our adventure going to be this weekend."

he has traded sleep for family time.

and for him that is HUGE aspect of his life to change

 and i am super grateful for that.

i love that when we are out he can make anything fun,

like ANYTHING.

i know that when he's around he never lets anything become dull or boring or awkward.

he can make up a game in a matter of seconds

and he will put such effort into it that is becomes the best game EVER.

he makes me carrot and apple juice even though he's had along day at work.

and on sunday's he makes me my cashew custard,

because he knows i love it but after sundays i'm wrecked and can't be bothered making it.

not a big deal to some but to me HUGGGGE.

so after this "i have the best husband in the world" blog

remember that our relationship is not perfect and we are not perfect people.

marriage is a consistent effort and this year our marriage has been on a rollercoaster.

and i think jevan will agree that it's had more declines than inclines.

but today i am feeling the love lol

- tomorrow though could be completely different.

i'm grateful that we got married young.

we have had to grow and go through lots of big things together

and looking back now there's no-one suited to me to get my through them than my joovy.
happy fathers day.