Zay-Beam

we have a little boy in our house that is starting new chapters in his life this year.

the first of them is that he is now a sunbeam.

zayden is quite different from the other two.

he does not adjust well to change at all.

he does not like new things.

it took him 18 months to settle into nursery

and this was only because his "uncle moti and aunty pesi" were called to be his teachers.

that was such a blessing in his life.

i have been prepping him all of december for the change that would be coming.

we spoke about how he would be a big boy going into primary with his big brothers,

i told him that he would get to stay with his same friends from nursery,

he would get to do more singing time with sister hobby,

 (he LOVES singing time - every sunday when he doesn't have the song in the he gets quite upset)

and then the question came.

"Will Uncle Moti and Aunty Pesi come with me?"

I told him that they wouldn't but i bet he will have even more fun with his new teachers.

he cried and cried and cried.

I told him we can go back and see them whenever he wanted to give them hugs.

that wasn't really a reasonable compromise for him.

the day came of sunbeams,

his older brothers had gotten him all excited about going

and i thought this is sweet he will transition fine.

i got some photos of him before we went,

gave him a big lunch

because "sunbeams are big and they don't need to eat during primary"

we walked to church and got to the front door of the chapel,

i looked down at him he looked up at me,

big tears welled up in his eyes and he said

"mum i don't want to be a sunbeam i want to go with Uncle Moti."

it took lots of hugs and reassurance that he will be ok.

he sat by my side all sacrament meeting

i think he was thinking of ways to get out of going,

he even tried to put himself to sleep.

sacrament finished and tears now poured down his cheek.

we waited and thankfully his aunty is the primary president.

she took him and he cried.

but i picked him up and he told me how much he loved it.

every week we have to go through this routine.

the nerves, the tears, the encouraging, the prepping 

but every week he goes and i'm so proud of him for that.

he will only go into primary holding his aunty's hand

but i don't even care, 

even if he does that at age 11 

*insert crying laughing emoji*

because knowing zayden that's what will be happening. 

as long as he goes i'll be down with whatever !