A Tender Moment

so i had a pretty crappy day today.

it probably had everything to do with the bad mood i woke up in.

sometimes the day seems to feel so overwhelming,

that i have no idea how i will get everything done.

then there's the mother guilt that i'm not spending enough time with the boys.

and then that's not mentioning the laundry, the grocery shopping and all of that stuff that "has to be done."

i really don't know how all you mothers out there cope,

i think you need to give me some tips in organising my day.

with two kids i could complete everything but then throw another baby into the mix 

and i'm all over the place.

but my day wasn't all bad.

i was sitting in the bathroom watching zay while he was in the bath.

and then makai came in and threw his arms around me,

he gave me the biggest makai hug ever.

(if you have experienced one of these you'll know what i'm talking about)

he then told me he loves me so much.

he is such a sweet and tender boy,

he is so sincere in what he says and doesn't tell you something he doesn't mean.

i'm so grateful that he chose me to be his mum,

he must have seen something in me that i didn't.

today in that moment he gave me the courage to keep moving forward.

he is my joy in this journey.

Elder Whitmarsh

there has been so so much fun on our trip to america.

there has been so many highlights.

but there is one memory that will stand above the rest.

i was able to watch my nephew be set apart as a full time missionary for our church,

The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.

this is a journey that he is going to grow immensely in.

he will be challenged, he will be tried, he will be pushed to his absolute limit.

but he will overcome all the obstacles faced him, this i am sure of.

his faith will grow, his testimony will strengthen, his love will deepen.

it has been two years since jevan and i saw him,

and we can't believe how much he has grown in the last two years.

i am so excited to see what he will be like in another two while in service of our saviour.

he is leaving a boy but he will return a man.

i am so proud of him, i am so proud of his commitment.

i watch braydon with his mother and the relationship that they share with one another,

i am in awe of the love that he has for his mother.

she did alot right with that boy,

i hope that i can follow her footsteps and have that relationship with my boys as they continue to grow and reach new stages in their lives.

being a mother is hard but moments like these give me the courage to keep going and persevering along this road of motherhood.

it sometimes is a thankless and lonely road that we find ourselves on, but the little things along the way,

the smiles,

the laughs,

the hugs,

the jokes,

to be able to see the growth in your child as he accomplishes tasks that are difficult or challenging,

to be able to have them come and confide in you when the rest of the world has turned it's back on them,

for them to be able to come in and sit on your bed after an activity or a dance and tell you all the excitement that happened, or just simply whats going on in their life,

i think these moments make motherhood all worth it.