A Confession

Ok. 

So I tried to be adventurous and save us some money by "attempting" to cut the boys hair. 

I was all "how hard could it possibly be," right?

Oh how wrong I was.

This should sum up how great my job was when my mum saw makais hair for the first time she looked at me and said "we all have a bad haircut once in our life."

in my defense, I had the front all nicely done and then he moved and I had to take it a LOT further back than I would have originally liked, now he looks like he has a massive forehead.

jevan has banned me from doing it ever again. 

needless to say I'll never pursue a career in hairdressing.

A Tender Moment

so i had a pretty crappy day today.

it probably had everything to do with the bad mood i woke up in.

sometimes the day seems to feel so overwhelming,

that i have no idea how i will get everything done.

then there's the mother guilt that i'm not spending enough time with the boys.

and then that's not mentioning the laundry, the grocery shopping and all of that stuff that "has to be done."

i really don't know how all you mothers out there cope,

i think you need to give me some tips in organising my day.

with two kids i could complete everything but then throw another baby into the mix 

and i'm all over the place.

but my day wasn't all bad.

i was sitting in the bathroom watching zay while he was in the bath.

and then makai came in and threw his arms around me,

he gave me the biggest makai hug ever.

(if you have experienced one of these you'll know what i'm talking about)

he then told me he loves me so much.

he is such a sweet and tender boy,

he is so sincere in what he says and doesn't tell you something he doesn't mean.

i'm so grateful that he chose me to be his mum,

he must have seen something in me that i didn't.

today in that moment he gave me the courage to keep moving forward.

he is my joy in this journey.