Troublesome Threes

braxton is turning three in 4 and abit weeks.

but his attitude has already hit it.

i always prepared myself for the terrible two's (which start at 18 months now)

but nobody told me about threes.

twos i can handle but threes - wowzas.

braxton has always been my wild child ever since he was born.

he does what he wants only when he wants to.

he will blatantly (no idea if i spelt that right) disobey you or ignore you if he doesn't want to do it,

and he is unapologetic about it.

he literally does his own thing, he doesn't even care if noone else wants to do it.

his thing is "i don't care i'll play by myself if you don't want to"

joovy's favourite comment to make

"oh wow i wonder where he gets it all from"

- me.

yep, i can't lie. all me.

my mum always told me "you'll get one like yourself one day"

psch what do mothers know?

oh boy, she was right.

we mirror each other's personality.

you can take toys away from him, dvd's away from him, park time away from him, send him to time-out, send him to his bed - he literally does not care.

he is always going to be the one to give me grey hairs when it comes to girls.

i was at the beach with him the other day and he started walking off,

following 2 girls in bikini's.

what two year old does that?

so wish me luck blogging world.

i'm about to feel a whole lot of gratitude for my parents raising me when i was three and not giving up.

A Daughter Of God

yesterday i went to the general womens broadcast.

it was so uplifting to go.

i do have a little confession though, i did not want to go.

i'm that kind of person that will make any little excuse not to go.

it's solely because i'm lazy.

i'm grateful for a husband and friends that encourage me to go.

especially for a husband because i was in such a bad mood an hour leading up to it,

the kids had been crazy all day, zayden is teething so he is like a grinch at christmas right now, my hair was super super gross, i didn't get to jump in the shower until 5:30 and it started at 6.

basically i was finding any little thing that was going wrong and MAGNIFIED it.

jevan simply said, you don't have to go, it's up to you but i know you will feel better if you go.

so along i went.

i have been enduring a personal struggle for the last couple of months.
i have been struggling with my worth on this earth.

i have had thoughts does heavenly father really know me personally?

does he know what i am struggling with, is he even helping me?

i have even felt sometimes that i don't have a plan set out for me but i am just here to fill a body.

president utchdorf gave a talk that i guess was the sole reason i was meant to go and listen to.

i wrote some things down that stuck out to me.

i write these to help those of you out there that are having this same kind of struggle or the same thoughts.

• you are always a child of god
• he knows what's best for you but he wants you to choose what you thinks best for you
• heavenly father is raining blessings down but our doubt acts like an umbrella which stops the blessings from reaching us
• you are loved by your heavenly parents
• he knows the time you held onto the fading light and still believed
• he knows the times you've fallen short and he still loves you
• he knows when you help others with their burdens even though your struggling with your own
• do you think our looks or dress size change your worth to him?
• he knows the potential and desires you to become more than you can imagine
• he wants you to return to your heavenly home with honour
• as you live the gospel joyfully you will discover your best self - your real self.

how inspired it was for my friend to ask me if i was coming to this broadcast.

how inspired it was for joovy to encourage me to go right up until the last minute.

i'm so grateful i went to hear these words that my spirit needed to hear.
i know i have a father in heaven who loves me.
he knows my trials, he know my struggles, he knows my failures but he still loves me.

you are all beloved children of a heavenly father.