A Daughter Of God

yesterday i went to the general womens broadcast.

it was so uplifting to go.

i do have a little confession though, i did not want to go.

i'm that kind of person that will make any little excuse not to go.

it's solely because i'm lazy.

i'm grateful for a husband and friends that encourage me to go.

especially for a husband because i was in such a bad mood an hour leading up to it,

the kids had been crazy all day, zayden is teething so he is like a grinch at christmas right now, my hair was super super gross, i didn't get to jump in the shower until 5:30 and it started at 6.

basically i was finding any little thing that was going wrong and MAGNIFIED it.

jevan simply said, you don't have to go, it's up to you but i know you will feel better if you go.

so along i went.

i have been enduring a personal struggle for the last couple of months.
i have been struggling with my worth on this earth.

i have had thoughts does heavenly father really know me personally?

does he know what i am struggling with, is he even helping me?

i have even felt sometimes that i don't have a plan set out for me but i am just here to fill a body.

president utchdorf gave a talk that i guess was the sole reason i was meant to go and listen to.

i wrote some things down that stuck out to me.

i write these to help those of you out there that are having this same kind of struggle or the same thoughts.

• you are always a child of god
• he knows what's best for you but he wants you to choose what you thinks best for you
• heavenly father is raining blessings down but our doubt acts like an umbrella which stops the blessings from reaching us
• you are loved by your heavenly parents
• he knows the time you held onto the fading light and still believed
• he knows the times you've fallen short and he still loves you
• he knows when you help others with their burdens even though your struggling with your own
• do you think our looks or dress size change your worth to him?
• he knows the potential and desires you to become more than you can imagine
• he wants you to return to your heavenly home with honour
• as you live the gospel joyfully you will discover your best self - your real self.

how inspired it was for my friend to ask me if i was coming to this broadcast.

how inspired it was for joovy to encourage me to go right up until the last minute.

i'm so grateful i went to hear these words that my spirit needed to hear.
i know i have a father in heaven who loves me.
he knows my trials, he know my struggles, he knows my failures but he still loves me.

you are all beloved children of a heavenly father.