The Year Passed

as the new year approaches, i have found time to reflect on the year that has just passed.

if i could sum up this year in one word it would be Hard.

it was one of the most challenging years i have faced.

mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually.

there were times where i thought i cannot do this anymore.

jevan has chosen the profession of auditing which takes him away from the home for 6 months of the year, add full time study and a time consuming calling on top of that and you have a husband that spends the minority of his time at home.

i had to adjust alot to these changes which in the beginning i struggled with, but with help i was able to work through these.

makai went through times of struggle where i sometimes would sit on my bed and with tears in my eyes and pray that i would be able to have the patience for him.

my own spiritual well-being took a beating for months and months which was so draining.

this year was not the relaxing year i had hoped for but because of all these trials and challenges i learnt so much about myself, i learnt what i can really do, who i have faith in and now looking back i am glad that i didn't have a relaxing year, i'm glad it was filled with challenging moments that were there for a time and season because without those moments i wouldn't have been grateful for the amazing sweet and tender moments i got along to way.

makai overcame so much at the end of this year, i am so proud of him and his quiet achievements.

i'm so grateful for the people that were put in his life throughout this year.

braxton may just be hitting the terrible two's in this last week but he has been a delight for the majority of the year, his own little personality really started to shine this year.

jevan has never worked so hard since i've met him, he is such a great example to me and the best husband and father i could have ever hoped for. together this year we have really learnt the true meaning of marriage.

as i sit here and think of the new year i cannot even imagine what is in store for me on my journey but i know it will be for my benefit - even if i may not like it.