Before Here

i always find myself thinking at this stage of pregnancy of my little boy in the pre-existence waiting for his time to come down to earth.

i wonder who is there with him giving him his final talk, his final hug and his final goodbye as he prepares to enter his next stage of the plan.

i wonder if he's scared or nervous, or is so excited he is bounding around there with joy and happiness and determination that he will make it back.

i get overwhelmed to think that i get entrusted with this little person.

jevan and i have the most sacred responsibility to get him back to where he needs to be.

i wonder if he knows the trials he will face and knows all the temptation that he will face.

i always have this precious picture in my mind, which always brings tears to my eyes of his uncle and papa giving him his last goodbyes and final messages as he looks back at them for the last time for a season of his life.

i am incredibly grateful to have the opportunity to be a mother.

yep, my boys drive me insane at times.

but they chose to come to me, to know that they believed in me enough to get them back to where they need to go gives me the strength i need to keep going and enduring anything trial that is thrown my way.