Light Bulb Moment

so this week i had a light bulb moment.

it has just occurred to me that my life is no longer mine 

and it is dedicated to raising my children.

i always knew it was dedicated to raising them

but really i just realised my life isn't mine anymore lol.

i would see people on social media travelling or going for hikes or going to the beach,

things that i want to be doing.

and then a thought came to me,

that i am only 26.

i have plenty of time to tick off bucket adventures and to travel to amazing places.

i will never get this time back with my boys ever again.

once they are grown up 

that's it.

and let's face it i have 3 sons they will literally all leave me.

and ever since i have come to this realisation i have been less stressed about everything.

dinner hasn't been on the table at exactly 5 o'clock,

because homework and reading time is more important.

bike rides are more important,

learning how to play a sport is more important.

answering there questions is more important.

if they house isn't vacuumed once a day

if they aren't in bed at 7 on the dot.

-that's ok,

fortunately the crumbs will still be there tomorrow.

being a mum is the best thing i have done.

and i'm trying to embrace it 

every moment of it

- the bad, the ugly and the hair raising.