My Makai

on our way home from grammy and grampy's sunday night dinner

we drove past a high school.

i hear from the back makai saying

"mum i don't want to go to high school"

i asked him why he didn't want to go there.

his reply "because they will have lots of words i don't know there mum"

these last three weeks have been an emotional rollercoaster for me.

we have found out makai has a learning difficulty.

one of the things he struggles with is when it comes to forming shapes of letters in his head.

which is making reading and writing very challenging for him.

so because of this he has started to see an occupational therapist.

he has been a champ and he is super proud of his achievements he has made in just a week.

but hearing this little boy's fear of not going to high school broke my heart.

but he doesn't know what i know,

that he is going to be great man.

this family is a team 

and we are are going to work through this and make sure he gets to the other side.

we are going to be his cheer squad

and we will be there to hold him up when he's given all his has.

we will make sure he doesn't get left behind ever.

this experience already has bought me patience that i never knew existed in me.

it will require persistence but most of all love to support this little boy.

my boys will honestly never know how much i love them.

they are the best part of me and jevan.

they are our all.

they are the warmth that fills our hearts and our home.

they are the reason we get up each morning and do what we do.

their smile can light me up and give me the courage to keep going on.

they will never know the influence they have over me.

as i look back over the last 2 years i can see heavenly fathers hand in placing makai where he needed to be at this time in his life.

his school have been an amazing support and guide to him and myself during this new experience.

his present and past teacher, his reading teacher and deputy principal 

have looked after my boy so well.

i could never have asked for a better place to send my child each day knowing that he has people that love him and want him to succeed just as much as jevan and i.

this is a tender mercy and one that i will be forever grateful for.