By Your Side

ok.

let me tell you about how we prepared for the sabbath this morning.

everything was going to plan.

jevan was dressed, i got to have 10 minutes to myself to get dressed (big achievement) and the boys were half dressed.

and then basketball came into play.

they have a little ring that hooks over their door.

that's when our calm morning turned south.

fights over balls were happening, balls were being thrown at peoples faces and the list could go on.

i lost it (yup, on the sabbath).

like really lost it.

balls got confiscated and they were even told that they were getting left behind all on their own.

brax went into wailing mode, makai went into denial mode.

like he was trying to call my bluff.

as i packed up the stuff and headed out the door (yeh makai - who's bluffing now fool)

i hear a sweet tender voice trying to stay strong because he knows he needs to give try and comfort his little brother.

"it's ok bracky, you won't be alone, i'll be here with you."

i won't lie i stopped what i was going to listen to him keep repeating this over and over to braxton with his arm around.

we RARELY get these kind of moments in our household.

i wonder if that's what makai said to his little brothers in the pre-existence.

i wonder if when they were looking at all they would have to endure that he looked at them and said

"but don't worry you won't be alone in all this, i will be there with you."

some of the craziest times in parenting can bring the sweetest moment.s

my boys are so special to me.

you have no idea and they will have no idea the love i feel for them.

i'm so grateful that they will always have each other.